Grrr. I feel very lonely right now. I've always been rather misanthropic. My sister, Consort, and Abra are the only people I consider friends and I don't see Abra but once in a blue moon. I don't even have any aquaintences I could pursue "real" friendship with. It's not a problem most of the time. I like my solitude. And frankly I just don't have the patience to deal with a lot of the common but annoying aspects of human nature. But times like this arise where I sit here twiddling my thumbs wishing I had someone to chat with, play a game of chess with, watch a movie with, ect. I've been making a point to participate on the Audioscrobbler forums, I joined MySpace, and I've actually been running my IM programs. Now, if I could just get over my real-world shyness there's wonderful potential in attending a local BDSM munch. I also have an invitation to meet a cute, bi, poly girl and her husband one of these nights at a internet/gaming cafe in town... yeesh... but I'm VERY self-conscious about this one. She's one of those tiny, skinny little gals and I get the distinct impression that both she and her husband are not especially interested in larger ladies - which is where I stand. :-\ I'm just getting kind of frustrated I guess. Meh.

On a nicer note, I made myself an impressively kick-ass margarita today! Obviously you can't tell how delicious it tasted from a picture, but... :-p

Current Mood: lonely

((written last night))

A fair bit to ramble about today.

My sister and I went out yesterday afternoon for lunch and a movie. There was a bit of extra time after lunch so we popped into the casino next door. I played $5... and won $250. That's the most I've won at these things, and it was certainly appreciated given I had only $20 to my name. :-p

We saw Sin City which my sister hadn't seen yet. Refer to a recent past entry for my thoughts on the movie.

Consort, my sister, and I went out for a late dinner and drinks, and the adult bookstore afterwards. I put some of my newly aquired funds to good use and bought two new vibrators. I haven't had a chance to test them out yet, unfortunately. :-> I had a nice conversation with the girl working there. I asked if they were hiring... turns out they hired a guy last week. Grrrr. But the gal gave me an application in case he doesn't work out and signed herself as a referal (she's gotten to know Consort and I pretty well over the last couple of years). Ah, but I'd love to work there...

I woke up this morning feeling kinda crappy. I'm still a tad sick and slept horribly last night, waking up every couple of hours so stuffed up I couldn't breathe. Consort and I'd relationship has been experiencing a bit of strain and tension lately but we ended up having one of those splendid days that reminded us why we were drawn to each other in the first place. We went down to the forest park area by the river and had a nice walk and picnic lunch. I frolicked about topless for awhile. We contemplated copulating in a thicket but there were quite a few people walking the trails and we weren't sure we wanted to deal with someone stumbling across us. :-p

Consort and both got rather sunburnt and pretty much collapsed in bed, tired and sun-irradiated, the second we got home. We were both incredibly horny though and ended up having truly kick-ass sex. You know, when people ask my favorite position I tend to say doggystyle but I don't know... It was the first position I ever truly loved but cowgirl has been yielding increasingly incredibly experiences. I will officially say cowgirl has taken hold as my #1 favorite position. :-> I have a notoriously difficult time achieving physical orgasm during intercourse (it's only happened once) but today... aeiii... I came like a mutha-fucka! :-D I'm still glowing. *lol*

Current Mood: horny

I was looking over a couple of old discs of pictures yesterday. Jesus Christ! I forgot how much porn I used to download! ^.^;; Well, I was wondering how to spice my journal up. Anyone want a "Erin's Favorite Porn" pic-of-the-day? *lol*

Current Mood: cheerful

Argh. Yesterday I woke up with a sore throat. I didn't think much of it. I had smoked pot for the first time in almost six months the night before and figured I had just blasted my throat a bit too much. This morning I woke up with nasal congestion, fever, and body aches in addition to my sore throat. I don't think pot generally does that to a person. *lol* I've been mostly sleeping today. I took some cold medicine a couple of hours ago and am feeling somewhat better. I hate being sick.

Consort drove to Bozeman today to visit L. I hope he's having fun, although I'm a little irritated that he didn't call to let me know he arrived safely. The roads were pretty nasty today.

Ho hum.

Current Mood: sick

Well, since I'm bored and horny what better way to kill time then fill out a sex survey? ^.^

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1. What's your age and sex? 23, Female

2. What's your sexuality? Bisexual

3. At what age did you lose your virginity? Describe it. It was just before my 20th birthday. I don't remember it very well. Not a case of being too drunk or such, it was just really boring and uneventful. *lol*

4. How was your first time? See above. Boring and uneventful.

5. How many sex partners have you had? (Be honest) Let's see. Four. Three men (two of which involved penetration for those who take the "oral sex isn't sex" view), one woman.

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Current Mood: horny

... And hopefully the intense sarcasm of that subject title will come through the cold computer screen.

Sunday afternoon. Out with my sister. Nice, light breeze. 81 degrees. Flowers are blooming. The grass is green.

Tuesday afternoon. Less than 48 hours later. Illustrated by a photo of my backyard.



I've lived here most of my life and really should be used to this. Just when you think winter is over. When it's been weeks since the last snow. When the flowers are blooming and it's 81 degrees outside. You think... yeah, winter is really gone. Nope. Not in Montana. Meh.

In other things. I've been dorking around on AudioScrobbler the last couple of days. Have this burning curiosity concerning my music listening habits? My Audioscrobbler Profile. Fun fun.

I'm really horny for some reason.

Current Mood: horny

The latest possible-poly-partner statistics:

"L". She is giving off progressively stronger shades of being a jealous "psychobitch". Consort will be visting her wednesday (she lives in another town) and much will be determined then as it has thus far been a predominantly email and phone based exchange. We both have a feeling this won't really go anywhere.

"J". She continues to come into Consort's work to visit him. She invited him to coffee a few nights ago... and introduced him to her ex-boyfriend whom she has been displaying much interest in. Consort has this sinking feeling she wasn't so much interested in him as the solid advice he might give her on whether or not she should get back together with her ex. Bummer.

"O". This is the bi, poly, married girl I met online a few weeks ago. I was highly skeptical at first but am rather intrigued now. She has displayed a genuine interest in me despite my throwing a few aspects of my personality at her that she might not like. She's not especially spiritual or intellectual, which is disappointing, but she has a very easy-going personality and seems like a good-natured, "fun" person to know. I'm looking forward to seeing where this one goes...

Hmmm. The local branch of the BDSM Montana mailing list is having a munch today but it looks as though I missed it. I was planning on going... but I knew I would probably wuss out in the end. I'm so shy about meeting new people. *sigh*

Current Mood: relaxed

Eeesh. This is the first time I've been to LJ in almost a week. I've been caught up playing The Sims 2. It really is far more addictive than it by any means should be. ...

Current Mood: mellow

So, at lunch Consort goes to the top of the parking garage and sits, meditating, on the trunk or hood of his car. He's been doing this for almost a month. Well, thursday he opens his eyes to see someone in the bank building across the street staring at him from a window. In amusement he wonders if they thought he was casing the place or something. As he heads down he wonders in further amusement if he'll be greeted by security when he gets to the bottom of the parking garage. ... Sure enough, he hits the street and sees three men in suits walking towards him. They close him in; one in front of him, two behind, and ask for his ID. They flash theirs. FBI! Oi... They asked him what he was doing up there. When he responded that he was meditating I guess they asked in a snarky fashion "what he was meditating about". He mentioned he was buddhist and was grilled over how long, what temple, ect. They asked where he worked, where he was born, ect, ect. At the end Consort said "so should I take it that I shouldn't meditate on top of the roof anymore?". Their response was - "We can't officially say that, but if you keep doing it expect to see us again." ... Later a suspiciously clean-cut man came into the shop (Consort works at a new ageish wiccan, buddhist, ect book store) saying he was new in town and "just wanted to visit some of the shops downtown". He asked about various things they had there (meditation bowls and such)... then left. Consort said he might have just been paranoid... but it sure seemed like they were checking to make sure he really worked there and really knew anything about buddhism.

It's kind of funny. But it's kind of disturbing to. I don't like to think that meditating warrants being hounded by multiple FBI agents. Just a tad 1984-ish for my taste. :-(

Current Mood: hungry

Consort and I saw Sin City monday night.

It was pretty faithful to the comics really only cutting a few scenes (presumeably) for length and, of course, censoring nudity like a mo-fo. I find it irritating and incredibly illogical that there weren't issues with keeping the violence in tact... but god forbid we see full-frontal nudity! In some cases I don't feel it made a differance (for instance, in the comics Gail is naked when she's kidnapped) but in others... Well, I'll point to the most obvious example, and the one everyone mentions. Nancy. To have a stripper fully clothed in a gritty bar in gritty town... It just doesn't make a lot of sense. In my humble opinion it lessens the impact of her bar scenes, especially when Hartigan sees her again for the first time. Meh. The other scene that bothered me was where Yellow Bastard was whipping Nancy. Not that many of you would WANT to see him in all his grotesque glory but, for the record, he's not wearing boxers in the comic. ^.^ Sticking boxers on him took away much of the disturbing, perverse edge the scene had IMHO. ... But anyway. ^.^

I agree with the overall viewer opinion that Marv's story was my favorite, although The Big Fat Kill (Dwight's story) was great to, especially from a nostalgia perspective (it was the first Sin City graphic novel I owned and why I fell in love with the comics). The casting was really good for the most part. Of note... Mickey Rourke did an awesome job portraying Marv. Elijah Wood was a really good choice for the innocent-faced, serene, silent, intensely creepy Kevin. I love Benicio Del Toro and he was great as Jackie Boy. ... I'm not a fan of Jessica Alba anyway, but add to that her no-nudity contract and I bet you can guess who my least favorite casting choice was. ^_~

The soundtrack was pretty cool. I especially liked the title/credit track. ...

All-in-all a pretty awesome movie, and nice proof that good, faithful movies can be made from comics.

Current Mood: cheerful

Yup, I'm going on a diet...

I've always been chubby. By 20 I had worked myself down to 150 lbs, which I liked quite a bit. I was blessed with a natural hour-glass body shape so I definitely take well to having some curves. My ideal weight would be 135 to 140. At 150 lbs that goal seemed very much in reach. However, when I moved into my own apartment I found myself severely strapped for time and motivation, and as a result ended up eating fast food every day... often for breakfast AND dinner. Not surprisingly I gained weight. 50 lbs in about a year. I'm not so much concerned about my appearance as the noticeable effect my weight gain has had on my health. My goal, truly, is just to get in shape whether or not I lose weight. However, since I know it's very realistically attainable there's no reason not to pursue my "ideal" physical appearance while I'm at it.

Consort and I recently moved in with my parents and my eating habits have since improved by leaps and bounds. I've lost five pounds since moving back in with them but have been baselined at 195 lbs for awhile now. So I figured it was time to make a proactive attempt at getting in shape. I naturally eat well when I'm not sucked into fast food world... so that's not much of a issue... Ah, but I am lazy as hell! Hum.

...What I need is someone shoving me out the door and jogging behind me with a whip or something. Aheh.

Current Mood: hopeful

Well, my intent was to move to GreatestJournal. I deleted this journal, set up an account at GJ, ect... Now, I like GJ in a lot of respects. They have some really nice layouts and I really like having over 150 interests, but holy 15-year-old-girl-rating-communities batman! I'm going to keep up my journal there (username there is also strangenymph, in case you're interested) but I don't think I can give up my LJ. LJ may not be as "personal" as I would perhaps like but at least the sheer number of people means a number of active communities pertaining to my interests.

Current Mood: annoyed